Meltdown

Feeling very depressed today.Seem like everyone is dragging their feet.Doctors ,lawyers , angencies etc.who keep telling me to be patient. Well my patience is running so thin that I feel sick to my stomach.Yeah I have stage 1renal cell cancer of the kidney and it is not routine to do a full body cancer CT enhanced scan over my entire body.I do not mind them doing it but my gut feeling tells me(from what i read)there is concern about my whole renal system.i am not paranoid ,i actually and read this and my doctors were very vague talking to me  and said there are a couple of new players involved.Hopefully all will work out,medically and financially.What do I have to be crazy or lazy to get the money I worked for 36years.Hell may'be even dead before I get it.I appologize to family and friends,Im just having a little meltdown.LOVE YOU ALL