God moved me

Today was a good a good day.We ,mostly momma worked hard in the yard.I cut 80% of the yard , and she cut the rest.I was exhausted. It sucks being sick and worn down,however I try and will continue to fight.Our yard is starting to look great.It takes time but worth it. Just the little things in life are starting to make me see how precious life truly is .I at 51 years of age am starting to realize life is great. You need money in life ,but it by far isn't everything.I have 6 kids I love so very much,yeah I am estranged from 1 of them , but I know God someday will allow us to make ammends to reach an understanding to communicate and possibly reach a father -daughter love for each other that we should have .And Jen if you ever read this I truly Love you and would love for you to forgive me.However if not,I am proud of what you have done with your life and you are in my heart forever,no matter what.Anyway I will continue to fight my cancer and my other medical conditions with vigor and courage. I am not a quitter and I will beat this because I have a support group that believes in me,but most of all I believe in myself and I know there is a GOD that loves me no matter of my past. I will not beat myself no longer,I've done that most of my life.I have learned to love and forgive me even if my outcome doesn't work out like I would like it to .I WILL WIN ,I have the lord who said I will  because he told me I will no matter what anybody thinks or says about me because I have grown up and I know who really runs the show and it is not me.Peace and please believe.