Feeling Better Slowly But Surely

Well it has been a while since I last blogged but I guess I kinda been out of it in self pity,wondering where God was,isolating in my room feeling depressed. I' ll be honest, when I found out about  cancer I got really scared and started to feel useless. My wife and kids were out doing yardwork while I just sit there watching. Needless to say it hurts. With my COPD certain days outside are just too hard for me to breathe. Bills piling up,depression(which I now take meds for) which seem to be working with aniexty also.Then my power steering went ,got behind on rent...ugggggg !Then by truly a miracle a group called Vickies Angel Walk came into my life.The man in charge named Mickey started a non-profit organization to help cancer patients with finanicial problems to stay above water.This organization is going to help us with rent every month until the gov't gets off their ass and grant me my S.S.D..Also they are fixing my car......that is mindblowing to us. True I don't like asking for help in anyway, shape or form but you can not say no to Gods wishes.That is exactly what this is ,a gift from above,there is no other explanation.Vickies will be having a cancer walk in October and I hope some of my family and friends will join in. It's a fundraiser to raise funds to help families in need. Let's face it,nobody is immune to cancer,I found out the hard way and it hurts your mind, body and soul.I think I am finally coming to terms with this slowly but surely.It takes time don't let anybody bullshit you about this.So please walk with us in October, whether you are a survivor, family of a survivor, friend or just care about cancer,because everybody in my opinion care about the #1 killer of our generation. Next I want to thank my awesome wife for being there(no matter how much of an ass I can be),my kids for making me laugh when I need it, my son for keeping my competitive juices going and my new neighbors Fred and Kristie for helping us while we are without a car til next week.Well thats all for now talk to you all soon. Also Patti don't worry I'll call you soon. Peace.